just had a talk with a new found friend of mine. i'm glad i made a new girl-friend(: had a really heart to heart chat. just realise how vulnerable i am. How naive i can be. how dumb really. liefe is really never a bed of roses and sometimes i feel so mistreated, like taken for granted, from no one in particular but from anyone and almost everyone. even the closest people to my heart, my family.
sometimes i really wish i can just fly off to another country and forget singapore, forget all the stuffs here. all the unhappy memories.all those that once made me cry or hurt me in a way or another. leaving with no turning back. leaving with no regrets.
but guess what? life still have to go on. i still have to go to the damn school. not that i hate it, just that work is piling up and i'm getting all stress over again. composition is a killer much less history.
adn on top of all this shitty workload, i have to deal with friendship problems, their childishness and my parents. sometimes i really think i suck to the core. it's so hard to even pour out my heart to just someone. to have a heart to heart chat with someone. to just sit down and cry. i think when i have a house one day i'm gonna design one corner call the reflection adn crying corner. stupid isnt it? but i'm so gonna do that!
i hate it when people breaks their promise i hate it when people lie to me i hate it when people appear all so macho,goody goody and sweet in front of me when at the back they are just jerks. YES! i hate jerks!
i once remember timmie kor told me he has a mental black book. maybe i should adopt that and make it physical instead of mental. get a lback book and put the photo of those i detest in there. hatred is what i feel sometimes and sometimes even love cant cover it. ohwell. too bad.
forgive mich.forgive.love and forgive. dammit.this is hard. don't step on my tail one more time. just another lie thats it.
ps: don't bother asking me who offended me or why am i pissed cuz i dont wanna talk more about it.period.
